As I sit here frustrated and staring at my blank screen; Bailey (my cat) jumps up on my computer desk as Puma (my other feisty cat with low tolerance levels ready to attack at any given moment) hops on my lap hindering my ability to move around freely. Bailey lays near the screen forcing me to adjust the keyboard and mouse to accommodate her. Puma has slightly hooked onto my skirt with the tips of his nails as a warning to me not to ruin his nap. My chair doesn’t dare swivel or move cause Leeno ( my dog) is under it and I would accidentally run over him.

Am I uncomfortable and upset? Not at all. I am thankful that they helped me fill a page that a few seconds ago was blank. Perception is everything. You see, they did not wake up from their comfortable spots throughout the house and purposely come into my office to inconvenience me. Rather, they felt my presence and wanted to be near me. They rely on the instincts and intuition given to them by nature. Here it is safe and you are loved.


Considering myself an artist. I allow my intuition to flow freely without obstructing it with logic and intellect. Osho has stated in one of his books that human intuition is the truth coming from within you, it is what brings meaning, joy, blessings, serenity and the secrets to existence into life. This does not mean that I don’t wish to sharpen my intellect whenever possible. Actually, I thirst for knowledge often feeling like a sponge wanting to soak up as much information as I can and as long as it does not conflict with my intuition all is well and peaceful. Repressing my intuition has often made me a grouchy complainer on the brink of an argument at any given moment trying to justify my vision of life. Feeling grateful that I have finally understood this, I can continue to write. There is always a part of my intellect that tries to discourage me. Now I can silence it and move on.


My Advice

Moments of misery will always exist, filled with pain, remorse, and guilt. You will make mistakes, some of them real big ones that bring consequences you must deal with.

It means you are learning, growing and changing into someone better.

There will be times when you will be all alone. Sometimes you will want those who were there when you wished them to leave you.

You can’t always have what you want.

You can not control the weather, only your perspective and reaction to it.

In between there will be the good choices and the moments of bliss, inner peace, and love that follow.  You will make some amazing decisions that will bring you great success and happiness.


Take a moment to realize how amazing you are, pat yourself on the back and celebrate! Don’t wait or expect someone to do it for you but if they do, be grateful you have them.

Always be grateful for what you have.

When an opportunity arises that scares your socks off and fills you with unbelievable amounts of happy, take it. Live it to its fullest.

Open your mind to all possibilities.

Don’t let fear stop you; instead challenge it to a duel every time. Remember that, fear is nothing but imagined future experiences where you fail and hurt. That is all that fear is, a vivid imagination suggesting failure.

Last but not least and most important of all…fall in love, deeply, passionately and completely, always careful not to lose yourself along the way, as many times as you can with as many people, things or ideas that enter your life, lift your spirit and make you fly.

Some will stay and some will run away. Let go of your expectations, be honest with yourself and those who should will always be there.

Everyone has something to teach you.

Take out the trash. Negative thoughts and emotions left inside you become uncontrollable damaging monsters that weaken you. When the bag gets heavy, God is waiting to help you lift the burden from your soul. He is on your side and He has all the resources you need.

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The Dark Side

It isn’t the happy days that you use as a measure of your life’s greatness, but rather the gloomy days that make you see all that is much clearly. The happy state is often a cloudy vision that everything is just fine the way it is, a surreal fog. Only when you are consumed with sadness do you begin to notice the crack in the tile on the kitchen floor or the musty smell behind the closets. You realize that you’re not happy. On a happy day, chances are these things would either be unnoticeable or too small to pay attention to.

So you carry on your sour mood only to experience more of it. You keep it tucked away under your skin and use reminders to hold on to it, like the room that needs painted, the mess of dirty laundry spilling over and the time he called you useless and crazy. It’s an unavoidable misery. You notice that there is no light in the house because it can’t get in. All the windows are facing the wrong way and it’s turning into a cave. You know where the entrance is, but you don’t try to leave. Instead you pick a corner and sulk. Sitting there waiting for nothing to change.

The darkest moments are perhaps the most creative ones. A scary thought that is. The unhappy selfish side that demands it all and wants it without the wait is the one that brings satisfaction in the end.

The crazy, dysfunctional self that I read all those books to correct is actually the one I need to keep me successful. I am daily changing my perception, my mind and my emotions to create a better me. One that is more acceptable and more successful. Yet, the unbalanced one is the one I need to create that person. I need to go there every once in a while in order to understand me. I need to have the circumstances against me pressuring me to come out and create.  I actually want and like that part of me. Instead of fighting it and ignoring it or trying to alter it, I must unite with it.

I need to let it take me where it knows I need to go.